Hah.

I couldn't have been more wrong. It was a good wake up call, to drag my inner introvert out from the closet into the spotlight.

Okay so I went for auditions for the first time for a singing competition. Some intra hall singing competition first. The winner of the hall singing competition would represent the hall in the INTER hall singing competition.

I had a bad cough yesterday and couldn't hit the high notes. Last minute today I swapped songs and I didn't practice this new song, was only given what? 1 hour. I sang defying gravity and murdered it. Not at the high notes, but the LOW NOTES. Friggin hell. I forgot the lyrics, blanked out at some parts, murmured the low notes cuz I freaking couldn't reach them.

Well the judges were people from my hall but I dont know them. Good or bad thing? I don't know. I think I chose a damn tough song too. Cuz I dont know any other songs. Havent been hearing songs lately.

So the comments were typical, great high notes, wow why did you choose such a difficult song? told them i changed songs last min blah blah. I was DAMN NERVOUS. FUCKKKKKK. And honestly my voice was tired from practicing too much before I went in. haha. last minute change song argh.

And they also said the pronounciation wasnt very good. Blahblah. Actually not that much bad comments, but I am still freaking disappointed. My voice could be better, I didn't have the guts, my friend had to accompany me. She waited outside the room of course. Love her. I only got to know her better today too. She's the one who suggested me changing song to defying gravity.

Well bottomline is. I'm glad I tried. I really am. But sometimes trying isn't enough. You need to tell yourself you'll emerge the victor. All I thought of was, I'll give this a shot, I make it or not nevermind. That was the wrong mindset. I should've told myself I CAN DO THIS, I WILL WIN. So this is what I get for trying, consolation prize, I just feel that well... it's better than not going at all. It's a great start. (: