there was, and still is, a girl that lives, that captures my attention so amazingly. I can never understand it. for reasons so bizarre, our lives are so shockingly different. yet i knew her and i dont think i can ever forget her. facebook helps.

we share the same insecurities and fears, we're so alike, yet our circumstances are so different. her family's broken; mine's whole. she thinks her life's fucked up but here i am, living each day as a blessing. i dont know. she doesn't believe in God anymore. i guess that makes all the difference in our attitudes towards life.

but i still miss her. it's weird, but she's one of those whom i really liked in the past, she's been so interesting and such an amazing friend. dont think i'll ever get a chance to know her again, we never really talked much and well, after she left we didnt talk at all. i wish i could help her somehow, but we're just, gone. nothing exists between the miles that stretch on forever between us.

happy birthday.