Today was astounding.

I don't want to elaborate on the chem test today. Made some mistakes, couldn't solve a killer question BUT praise the Lord always! It's over! (:

Nemo's outing at the ADM building was cool. I started out being very tired and bored but it turned out to be awesome in more ways than one.

So I would remember this for posterity, here is the amazing story.

(Cuz I'm lazy, I shall copypasta)

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
hahaha
i found my real sp today.
and he's from keroro.
XD

♥zhi♥ says:
HAHA

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
so shocked.

♥zhi♥ says:
can ask him
intro
that guy
to u!

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
nah
i already know that guy.
but so shocking!

♥zhi♥ says:
ooo
how u find out

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
cuz today nemo got outing at adm rmb?

♥zhi♥ says:
ya

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
then zhenglong ask his roomie along
then his roomie is from keroro.
so his roomie brought my sp along!
and i didnt know
all the way until everything was over.

♥zhi♥ says:
oooo
i tot ur go lantern thingy

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
then we (zhenglong, rulong, me and him)
we were at the bus stop to wait for that guy's bus.
then he suddenly said i sounded alot like his sp.
i was totally shocked
cuz, how qiao can it be?
i always thought that my real sp was from naruto
or simpsons
cannot be keroro.

♥zhi♥ says:
omg
he actually rmb ur voice?

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
YES
i didnt even rmb!

♥zhi♥ says:
he must hf really took a liking to u at that time

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
haha i dont know.
then!

♥zhi♥ says:
shuai ma?

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
quite. (:

♥zhi♥ says:
whoos
haha

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
he listed the first fact.
that i play badminton with my uncles or something.
hahaha
i thought it was wrong cuz i really couldnt rmb alr

♥zhi♥ says:
omg

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
so i rubbished him immediately.

♥zhi♥ says:
how can he rmb it for so long la

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
hahahaha
then!
he said.
cj.
from choir.
from then on gg.
then i ask, did you only talk to one girl.
then he said YES.
hahahaha

♥zhi♥ says:
HAHAHA
joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
i so happy already.
hahaha

♥zhi♥ says:
lolx
maybe he might be ur zhen ming tian zi
he rmb u for so long!
so sincerce

joanne - happy lantern/mooncake/sparklers festival! ((: says:
i was really shocked!
hahaha
i forgot everything about him. >.<
then he was like
we were both assigned to another sp in the end.
so he said he was pissed about the arrangement.
and i said i was too. >.<
hahaha


I'll never forget this. hahaha God is good! XD

Because I am totally screwed up now. Random thoughts.

1) Time is of essence.
2) If only you knew. But no, I don't think I want you to know. At least not yet. (A thousand emphases on this one)
3) Always keep the end in mind.
4) STOP CYBER-STALKING RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
5) I'm hungry. At 1am.

oh, the weird things I do.

tsk get a life joanne.

Woah that was scary.

I went to my blog and all I found were images from photobucket telling me my bandwidth has exceeded. wth! hahaha thank goodness it wasn't my bandwidth; uploading the images to my own account reverted everything back to normal. :D

I'll keep today's one short. Today's devotional was on how God kept His promises to David and made him powerful, granting him victories over his enemies. For this I wonder, if the same God that was with David is with me, how awesome that is! Sometimes I don't feel His presence but I know He's with me. This is something I always affirm others about, that God is always with them whether they feel Him or not. Faith is more than a feeling, it's believing in something you cannot see, even feel! But ah, how wonderful is the moment when I hear His voice. It just melts my world away.

At school I'm having a bit of a dilemma. Well, not really. I feel conflicted even though the answer is so simple. I know the answer yet.. the heart is prone to its own willfulness. It insists on a moment of impulse and selfish happiness. I must keep this heart in check.

Tests are coming! Time to ride the tidal waves of mugging.

During service this week, Pastor Khong talked about the importance of doing qt daily. Since my blog is rather... secluded (who knows about this blog anyway!) I shall use it to record my sessions, to reflect on the words spoken to me and to think about how I should apply it to my life.
From this site: http://english.duranno.com/livinglife/english_su06.asp

I just showered and came back from cheerleading. Grr I must stretch more or risk being totally cui.


What is your source of boldness? Confidence based on ourselves will fail, but confidence in God’s promises will never fail because God never fails. 1 Chronicles 17:16~22

Interesting once again, how the first devotional tackles something that has always been close to my heart. The word, "Confidence". It has always been an issue that I've struggled with. Does confidence always translate into the word "Ego"? I think a distinction has to be made.

Ego comes from a self-centric perspective, when one thinks only about his own issues, how he should behave so others look up to him and treats him with awe and respect. From my own definition, I think this is what I've been struggling with. This should be a non-issue! Ego shouldn't even exist. I don't want a joanne-centered thinking. No, this cannot be the case.

Confidence on the other hand, focuses more about others and includes a possibility that it originates from someone other than oneself. Confidence can be translated as ego ONLY if the confidence lies in oneself. In the passage given above, the origin of David's confidence is found in God. It is that humble confidence that distinguishes David from the rest, giving him God's favour.

My source of boldness huh... I must admit I am weak in the sense that I find the need to seek approval from others. Words of Affirmation is one of my love languages after all. I find the need to be appreciated important and without it, I am left dry and empty, nothing but a shell. Hence this would lead me to do weird things to find approval from others. No, this need for acceptance does not necessary lead me to compromising my own values and beliefs, it just makes me self-conscious about my appearance, my actions, how I talk, laugh, interact. This makes me really irritated with myself.

I still remember the many times I've cried upon being reminded that God loves me for who I am. He loves me regardless of my stupidity, my running-around-in-circles, my constant whining and falls. Each time I remember this, I remember I am a child of God and I know that He should be the source of my confidence. He is my God and even if the whole world is against me, He is by my side.

The application of this passage to my life may sound easy, but it really isn't. Each time I get no thanks in return for my deeds, walk the extra mile for nothing, I will remember this. God sees what I do and my boldness should come from Him.

This also applies to the great commission I guess. I'm impressed by Daryl, how he cares so much for his friends and just, invites them for a great time at the movies and later to church, shares his heart with us and pray with us. haha he would never read this but I really thank God for him. There's much I need to learn from this senior! His boldness really comes from God even though he's kinda lame. haha! XD

Alright time to study. physicssssssss. may God give me strength! :D

Time to stop thinking and start doing.

(I should switch to twitter soon if my blog post length persists)

what happened?

love is no longer that tangible feeling. it has degraded into a game.

and you're actually having fun playing it.