Okay let me be a bitch once in a while yeah. ;) Since I'll be without the Internet for *gasp* A WEEK. Nah I'm kidding. I'll survive.

ANYWAY

Was checking out ONTD_AI; these benches are so awesome. This statement of theirs for Kris is MY SENTIMENT EXACTLY.

1) YOU have ruined all other men for us
2) and we thank you for it.

Off to Shanghai! :D

I was just browsing through youtube after watching this and this when I found a video from hollywood.tv. I am UTTERLY DISGUSTED by it. Basically there were paparazzi stalking Kris and Katy after their dinner at Madeo's and gosh, I can't help but pity him. They should just leave both of them alone! He looked so pissed off and I really hope that he's getting used to his life by now.

*why am i blogging about this. gah* -.-

3 more days to SHANGHAI!

I'm dead tired now and have no idea why I'm here blogging on the pretext of drying my hair after my shower.


Well, no words can really express how I feel about all the fun I had today. First there was CG potluck at East Coast and then there was QQS potluck at Jean's house... I'm stuffed.


Then again, this isn't what I wanted to blog about.

*joanne types a few sentences, furrows her eyebrows (no, actually she's just staring dispassionately at the screen; she's too tired to even lift an eyebrow) and deletes them*


Well, THE POINT IS

she's disappointed with herself. Sure, today was fun, but I've never been aware of such thoughts creeping into the crevices in my mind, the seed of evil growing and taking root in what was once pure and... innocent? If I can even use that word. It's almost as if the cosmic battle of good and evil is not within the heavenlies, but within an individual soul.


We played murderer at Jean's house and in this game, there are 4 main categories in which the players can be grouped under. Namely, they are,

1) THE MURDERERS (without which there would be no game)
2) Policemen (people who have to guess the identity of the murderers)
3) Civilians (cannon-fodder)
4) Narrator (The One in the know, who reports who's dead the next morning)


I feel that this game somehow relates to me quite well. This might sound sketchy, but I'll draw this analogy. In my mind there are 3 voices (not audible of course), the good (policeman), the bad (murderer) and the apathetic (narrator).

This "murderer" continues to infiltrate my thinking even though the "policeman" tries his best to shake him out. All these while my "narrator" sits back on a folding chair sipping pina colada and merely comments, weighing both views but just going hmm and nothing else.

I believe the battle for good and evil has already been won by God and as His daughter, I have nothing to fear. However, in this period of seeking Him and doing His work, I find that I'm facing more troubles and distractions than ever. I really want to stop thinking bad and selfish thoughts because I know they are really destroying who I am and how I see the world.

I don't care if my life lands up like a piece of discarded story, please include a Deus Ex Machina in mine.

Haha alright enough for today. The narrator in my head can never compare to the big Narrator up there and I know that. He knows the ending before my story ever began. Gotta trust that!

Y (^ ^) Y HAHA I learnt this from Kevin. Cute huh.

P.S - I can imagine my sister going OMG WALL OF TEXT I DOWAN READ or something of the like. Hence I've cut up my paragraphs for easier reading. Though how much easier I don't know...

Once again, here I am contemplating if I should revive my blog. Age-old dilemma, no? hahaha. It's been an on-off thing for so long, I feel like deleting all my old entries. I don't know if they're even representative of the person I am now.

Then again, who am I now?

I feel like such a recluse! I don't know how I'll adapt to life in uni, in the hostel. I once thought I would be able to handle anything on my own. Gah I'm stupid.

Here's a few updates, mainly for my eyes only, don't know who reads my blog anymore!

11th to 17th July
Trip to Shanghai for community service. I need to brush up on my Chinese!

27th to 1st August
FOC for SPMS. Okay stupid acronyms. Basically, freshies camp for my Chem course at NTU.

1st July to 8th August
40 days of (maple) fast! hahahaha. Well this is to gear me up for uni life too I guess. To stop my maple addiction. Actually.. maybe I never had an addiction to anything. I was just too bored.



Life goes on, even though the world around me is still ever-changing. Michael Jackson just passed away and North Korea just fired another 2 missiles this morning. RIP MJ.

One thing I know for sure though, I'll still be very much a Kradam fan, even when I'm in uni. XD I just love them too much.

... Maybe I'll keep my old posts afterall.