I'm a little VERY riled.

Perhaps it's time to clarify one thing. I am not rich. I may have Nets but I still believe in saving money. So when I offer to pay for something first, be they birthday cakes and such, I would really like to receive payment back by the different persons sharing the cost of it asap, unless I've stated that I'm footing the bill myself. I can't believe I've already lost over 50 bucks like this. And it's not that I haven't been telling them to pay up. It may be my fault for sounding too nice.

Hmm so right after I announce to this group of people to pay me a certain amount of money for a birthday cake, some of them come up to me immediately to pay me, while the others just walk past me as if I wasn't there. Like hello, perhaps you've forgotten to do something? So I've got to become a loanshark to chase back the amount due to me. It would perhaps be better if I were in the position to collect money if the money actually came from some place else. But no, it's my damn money! If I keep hounding people to pay me back my money, I'll appear to be a money-lover or something. Dammit!

This might sound stupid but I really hate chasing people for things, especially since I've been reminding them since like... a month ago? Blame it on my attitude. I really should go all out and bug them till they give them back to me. I can't believe I've been reminding them time and again but still this happens. So maybe they've forgotten, and it's my fault for not reminding you all often enough. It hurts since these people are actually my friends, I trusted you all to return me those when they are due. yes, I'm talking about those damn walkathon cards.

Please meet me at tp and return them by tomorrow. Please don't forget.

HAHA I GOT A NEW PAIR OF SLIPPERS NOW! After a year of procrastination. =D

Really sorry Fanching for leaving you to get the slippers by yourself though you got mine with me. Bleah I'll make up for it another time! Uhh yeah and hope you've gotten your slippers! Later you go and buy some Corrinne May CD let's just say I'll laugh. Tsk. You bankrupt yourself much too often. So much for financial planning!

Chem test today was stupid! Or rather, I was! Sigh. So many careless mistakes, I can kiss goodbye to a pass. T__T Biology test tomorrow, guess the mugging is finally starting to kick in.

This is a day late but! Happy 18th birthday Deon. =) All the best for A levels in... 8 weeks time? Around there. =x

Okay off to mug. Just decided that I've been quite a delinquent, it's time to clean up my act. I read this yesterday on some devotion site and it just struck me. I won't give up! God is my ever-present help in my times of trouble. =)

Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary. (Galatians 6:9 ; NASB)

All the best people. Jia you!

Hey. I'm sorry, will you forgive me for being so harsh to you? I admit I lost my cool on Friday and was disappointed and all but the fact remains that you are my friend and I should talk things out instead of just dissing you like that.

See you tomorrow.

Meh. No one guessed the answer. Sigh.

So here's the answer!

Twinkle twinkle little star~
How I wonder what you are!
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky!

Just pretend you're doing GP and substitute those words with other synonyms by trial and error and you should be able to get the answer.

So it's the end of another week. Pretty pleased with how this week went, though I must say I really need rest. I was just looking forward to coming home to sleep when I had to get that message.

And so, sorry to everyone that I've sworn at today. I know they don't deserve to hear my vulgarities when they were supposed to be directed only at a certain someone.

This is to you. Don't ever bother me again. If this makes you happy, your joke made me laugh so much I cried.

Fain I fathom thy nature specific. I realized I don't know you that well after all.

Off to sleep. Night.

I think I've posted this in my old blog before but here's a poem for you all again! See if you can solve this riddle. =)

Scintillate scintillate asteroid vivific
Fain I fathom thy nature specific
Loftily poised amidst aether capacious
Strongly resembling a gem, carbonaceous.

Or if this version makes more sense...

Scintillate, scintillate, globule vivific!
In vain do I ponder thy nature specific--
Precariously poised in the ether capacious,
Closely resembling a gem carbonaceous;

Time to dig out the ol' thesaurus. x) Have fun!

And HY and MK had better not post the answer on my tagboard... >.<

I know I should be asleep now but i came online just to type this.

Hey dajie. this blogpost is for you. I'm sorry for being such an ass today; I should have put down my studies and gone out to celebrate your birthday with the rest of the family. I know you want a refund for such a lousy sister but sorry, you're stuck with me. I promise I'll be a better sister next time. haha. thanks for everything you've done, the good and the bad. Wait i shouldnt thank you for the bad lest you do them more often. but anyway! I thank God for giving you to me. or rather since I came later you should thank God for me too. HAHA. okay that's damn bhb.

This phrase is from a song by Bon Jovi. I know you don't listen to songs by them but yeah, felt this was quite relevant. You're perfect because God doesn't make mistakes.

have a blessed 19th birthday. =)

A little reprieve from studying.



One day, everyone will dance Hare Hare Yukai and world peace will finally be achieved.

Really funny how Nah decided to call me Haruhi after the main character in Ouran High School Host Club. Now I've taken after the character of Haruhi from The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi. XDD She's much more havoc than me though. All hail Haruhi!

Yesterday was simply fantastic. It was my first time seeing fireworks up so close! They were beautiful and I'm really happy to have spent that time with you.

And so this song is for you. It's everything I've ever wanted to say to you.

Same Ground - Kitchie Nadal

My love,
Its been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue.
Its hard leaving you that way when
I never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
Its strange i never would’ve
Wanted if until there was you.

Because i have learned that love is beyond
What human can imagine,
The more it clears
The more i have to let you go.

CHORUS:
But now i don’t understand why im feeling
So bad now when i know it was my idea.
I could’ve just denied the truth and lied.
But why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground?

My love because I have learned that love is a
Word gets thrown a little bit too much.
The best excuse to fill the infinite abyss
I never have to if all else fail

Would you be there to love me?
When all else fail,
Would you be brave to see right through me?

haha just let me end my post like this for once.

chao-

What do you do when you find out a song you love has this kinda translation. XD Sigh this has gotta be the most deceptive song ever.

Motteke! Sailor Fuku (Take it! My Sailor Uniform)

At vaguely 3cm, is that called squishy? Geez!
My wrapping is a uniform… It can’t be disadvantageous, pbbt.
I’ll try my best ♥ I’ll do it
That and catch & Release, gak
In the cleavage of sweat (Fuu) sweat (Fuu), Darlin’ darlin’ F R E E Z E!!

Kinda down, kinda gone
I love you- Huh, one’s wrong?
Worrier, high iron bar
Foodie- Cut it out

About the blushing body of that girl who jumped
She’s a normal girl, so to speak
Is it just me who was surprised? Tonkotsu wires, another helping-ping-ping

BON-BON cheerleaders
Let’s get! Cherry pie
RAN RAN welcome party
Look up! Sensation
Yeah! The feeling of existence…asteroids
They collided and melted, dumbfounded
Singing loudly, Sirenger

Take it!
The one who will be laughing at the end should be me
Because it’s a sailor uniform, that’s it ← The conclusion
Even though it’s Monday!
I’m not feeling well, so what to do?
Summer clothes are nice ← Oh? So! Cutesy

I hesitate until it gets close to 3 picts, yah ☆
Try your best, be eager, My Darlin’ darlin’ P L E A S E!!

Rising, descending
Falling in love- Keep it a secret still, that’s moral
Spoiled kid, bodyguard
Report card- Get cocky and you’ll be crushed

I tell that girl my pinky that got stepped on hurts
There’s an exaggerated glimpse of black knee-highs
Is it absolute, is it territory? I demand my bare feet to be smooth-ooth-ooth

MON-MON delusion chronicle
Let’s go! Parthenon
YAI-YAI Soran song and dance
What’s up? Temptation
Hey! The feeling of loss; a $$ part-time job
If you search for it, then you’ll discover
That you naturally have absolutely no fear for life

Try it!
What targets the new rules is my challenge
Even if I change my sailor uniform = me
What to do on weekends?
A flash of skin is common!
Uniforms are simple = easy

At wind speed 3 meters, I hold onto you and endure it, guish ☆
Your chest thumps, your tummy cramps, I’m Sugar sugar S W E E T!!

BON-BON MON-MON Day
Let’s get! Uh Uh Ah!
RAN-RAN chop chop kick
Look up! Fu Fu Ho!
HI! Education!! Love is ABC
Um, I wonder, um, I wonder, meow meow
It gets sunny, I get a crush, tragic love and such

Take it!
The one who will be laughing at the end should be me
Because it’s a sailor uniform, that’s it ← The conclusion
Even though it’s Monday!
I’m not feeling well, so what to do?
Summer clothes are nice ← Oh? So! Cutesy

Just as I thought
The one who will be laughing at the end should be me
Because it’s a sailor uniform, that’s it ← The conclusion

At vaguely 3cm, is that called squishy? Whoa!
My wrapping is a uniform… Right, can’t be disadvantageous, poh.
I’ll try my best ♥ I’ll do it
That and in cap & jersey, hah
If they turn see-through due to my sweat, it’s Darlin’ darlin’ A M U S E!!

Mind you, all this coming from a moe anime. -.-

After studying I met up with Fanching cuz he had this craving for Gelare. haha you pregnant woman. -.- My favourite flavour is Mint Oregon Fudge now! =D

Yeah so anyway, tests coming up tmr and I really shouldnt be here. Ciao! =)

HAHA YOU'RE EMO, I'M EMO, LET'S EMO TOGETHER.

Okay that's some emo shit. Anyway! A big hug to everybody out there who emo-ed with me and cheered me up while I was down. I hadn't gotten this low in a really long time. ii wub euu allx! x) -goes off to puke-

And this is for YOU Bliondi! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ANIME FANBOY. Hope you'll have time to enjoy your year with all the tests coming up for you! heh that's not a very good thing to say but yeah! Thanks for introducing me to all those fantastic anime and trailers. (:
(P.S - I'm so gonna get you to see my blog. XD)

The week coming up is gonna be super. Will be meeting MK to study chemistry on Tues, Fanching on Wednesday to watch Adi perform at the Esplanade and with YOU to watch the fireworks on Friday! Wheeeeee~ Haha too many exclamation marks all at once but I don't care! x)

And to think Promos are in 40 days. Aaw. ): This shall be the only fact that will bring me back to earth.

Till then, chao! :))))

haha I've gotta be the weirdest person ever.

I've been laughing insanely at random times, causing my mum to look at me with this look of utmost concern. It's just that whenever I think of it I just had to laugh. It hurts so much inside, yet the idea of it is so tantalizing... God knows I love a challenge.

I haven't had that high since 4 years. I wanna reach it again, though I know it's so wrong. Let's see if it can happen again.

Here she sat, nestled in the warmth of the sofa in the living room with the chilly night air blowing through the window. The dog laid on the white tiled floor, still as a carpet beneath her feet. She shivered as the wind entered the room, leaving the curtains waving like willow trees in its wake. Gazing absent-mindedly out of the window, she sighed deeply and closed her eyes. It had been a long time since she last felt this way about the world. She knew too little, assumed too much and was a fool. She can only blame her naiveness for the apathy that she felt tonight. It's almost as if in an instant, a blink of an eye, the world she grew up in and loved had changed. She did not dare to trust again, much less be disappointed in the ones she respected and adored. The world out there is beautiful, but it is getting tainted with each passing day. Innocence is no longer treasured, naivety now the equivalent of foolishness. She felt out of place in this big big world, this alien planet that she no longer knew. Waking out of her reverie, she was brought back abruptly to reality with the raised voices between her mother and sister. With another sigh, she laid her head back on the sofa and rested.

I have so many things I would like to say but I know some thoughts just cannot be expressed on my blog. But anyway, first things first.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN. Hope you enjoyed yourself today, whipped cream, cake, crumpler and all.

Yepps and ignore the rest of this post please. They're just random murmurs.

Just wanted to say that when you told me that, I almost couldn't hold back my tears. I couldn't stop contemplating about what I did not do yet was accused of doing. I know the trust between him and myself is slipping away and I don't know if anything can ever save our friendship. Don't know if I should even attempt to clarify matters cuz it'll all be futile if he holds on to the mentality ingrained in him that I'm behind the actions of someone else.
I've never had such good friends in a school before and it was like a shot in the chest. I suspected a small hole in the tapestry of our friendship but cuz I thought things would clear up by itself, the cloth stretched, enlarging the hole and leaving a gaping void in the middle. And well, I suppose he's been hearing the opinions of someone else, blurring the clear black line separating fact from fiction.
I'm just wounded and broken. And well to add to that, I think that I'm destroying someone else's social life. As much as you're my best friend, I really can't bear the fact that others don't really know you cuz you're always with me. yeah this is pretty obvious, bet you know who you are. Breaks my heart to hear him saying that you spend 90% of the time with me at school and not with the people you used to hang around with.
Guess it's time for me to fade away. Times like this makes me wish that I've never spoke a word to him/her, never opened up my shell to see the world. The fun I had with you guys were memorable but if it should end, I'll leave without regret.

Interesting how seemingly unrelated people could know each other. Like what Friendster claims, the world is linked by at least 6 people. For example, I know a friend and through him knowing somebody else and that somebody knowing another-body, I'm related to let's say... Stephen Christian? He's the lead singer of Anberlin by the way. haha.

Sigh anyway, shall elaborate on this another time, I'm being chased out of the library. I'm the only one left in the computer room. Bleah.