when my days are up
when time is no more
when life is but a dream
when death is a reflection of me
i will not regret.
i will not live a regret

when friends become foes
when love becomes hate
when to smile is to frown
when to live is to die
i will not regret.
i will not live a regret

when peace is war
when sweetness tastes bitter
when service is slavery
when joys are torture
i will not regret
i will not live a regret

for when my time is up
for when all is lost
for when life is not worth the living
for when everything turns white
i will not regret
i will not live a regret

for I experienced love

when I had friends like you

I'm losing my flair for blogging so I shall just let random things that hit me take the spotlight here. A very random Jonadab reminded me of the poem he wrote last time thus here it is. Hope you get what you want!

Alright guess it's time to let this blog rot. Till then, chao.

Cuz I'm bored. (:

GRYFFINDOR:
[x] You've never done drugs.
[x] You like a lot of people.
[x] You get along with everyone.
[ ] You love FOOTBALL
[ ] You love baseball.
[x] You're into writing and art
[x] Favorite music genre is rock.
[x] You believe in "innocent until
proven guilty" theory.
[x] One of your favorite colors is red
or gold.
[ ] Good grades at school.
[x] One of the worst things you can do
is lie.
[x] You plan on going to college.

TOTAL:9

HUFFLEPUFF:
[x] You're content with mostly
everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot.
[ ] You like to follow trends.
[x] Politics suck.
[ ] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome.
[x] Pink is one of your favorite
color.
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing.
[ ] Michael Jackson is talented as a
musical artist.
[ ] You're an optimist.
[ ] You're very emotional.
[ ] You believe in going steady at a
young age.
[ ] You haven't made fun of anyone this
month.
[x] Loyalty is the MOST important
thing in a relationship.

TOTAL:5

RAVENCLAW:
[x] You've been depressed to a certain
extent.
[x] You love to read.
[x] You appreciate theater & arts.
[ ] Sports suck.
[ ] Indie is one of your favorite genre
of music.
[ ] Every once in a while you have
little anger outbursts.
[ ] Lying is sometimes okay.
[ ] Blue is one of your favorite
colors.
[x] Knowledge is the key to power
[ ] Sarcasm is the best kind of humor
[x] People should know what they're
talking about before they talk.

TOTAL:5

SLYTHERIN:
[x] There's at least one person you
hate.
[ ] Basketball is a good sport.
[ ] AFL Football is amazing.
[x] Black is a cool color.
[x] You've lied about something
serious.
[x] You're a very deep person.
[x] You have considered suicide.
[ ] You are not very loyal.
[x] You like heavy metal.
[x] They make school seem more
important than it is.
[x] You're scared to grow up.
[ ] Anger is one of your primary
feelings.
[ ] You have trust issues.

TOTAL:8

Heh I'm half Gryffindor and Slytherin? That makes me kinda Harry Potter huh. I think being in Slytherin would be darn cool. And by "considered suicide", that was a very, very long time ago. I've grown up somehow.

Walkathon is on tomorrow! I really should sleep now. XD Goodnight!

20072007 was good cuz I finally messaged the ostrich to decide a day to meet. (: Really sorry for not messaging yeah.

Today went well with all the chemistry going on. XD Your U is definitely way better than my U since you know more stuff than I do. And mhmm thanks for teaching me hip hop. I'll be learning how to do krumping and body rolls when I'm free! After all, practice makes perfect. Though I may look like an idiot for now...

Eating blackforest ice cream from Island Creamery and watching TV is bliss. I feel like a first rate pig now, coupled with the fact that I don't really like exercising. And yet I still can get a comment that I have a *coughcoughgoodfigurecoughcough*. XDD

Alright off to settle EoM before sleeping. I'm hating PW to the core now.

My internet connection is dying. I can't access MSN anymore. Maybe it's all for good.

PTM today went okay. My dad brought me to Island Creamery after that to celebrate my promos! hahaha. He says I'm gonna be a changed person. x) must start to mug more and not let anybody, most importantly myself down.

Someone dedicated this song to me a long long time ago, I wonder how he is now. I lost this song when my computer crashed and I was pretty surprised to find it among the songs Andre sent me. It sure brings back memories. (: Memories 3 years old.

The Night The Lights Went Out In NYC - The Ataris

The lights are out in the city tonight
So close your eyes, gaze up at the heavens
And see if you can point me out

If I could have one wish tonight
I'd wish upon a satellite
To bring me back to you
We spend our whole lives searching for
All the things we think we want
And never really knowing what we have

So many paths that we can take
To bring us to our destiny
Gaze up at the heavens
And see if you can point me out

If I could have one wish tonight
I'd wish upon a satellite
To bring me back to you
We spend our whole lives searching for
All the things we think we want
And never really knowing what we have

Be careful what you wish for
These stars are fading out.

Off to fulfill my part of the deal, on to eat and then on to mug!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths. (Proverbs 3: 5-6)

Guess this'll be the verse that I'll be bearing in mind for some time.

The stress is settling in already after today's wake up call from Eugene Yeow during bio lect. Not that I wasn't stressed before that, but I realized that I had been preoccupied with other things apart from studies and it's time to set things straight. Some subjects are getting increasingly hard and well, sad to say for PW and bio we pretty much have to settle them ourselves. Sigh.

I've endured enough hell from people to learn a tough lesson in an even harder way. I've hurt many in the process and I swear I would never want such a thing to happen again. Anyway, why push so hard for something that isn't gonna be lasting? Sheesh I'm so short-sighted, living my life on a day-to-day basis, looking for instant gratification instead of the things that last forever.

Alright off to do econs. Crap msn hates me and I have PW to do. Shall have to wait for MSN to get over its hissy fit before attempting to go online again.

Good morning, it's a new day, again, as usual, always.

Bleah alright ignore the first sentence. I'm just tired.

Yesterday was the installation and hmm, it was quite unique and fun in a way. Congratulations once more to Audrey, Andre and Yahui! 1T30's new councillors. :D

Just some random thought flowing through my mind, so I had to type them out even so early in the morning.

I don't believe you're still holding on after the way he treated you. You know deep down inside you want him, but the hurt just isn't worth it. He flirts with other girls even with you at his side and talks about them all the time. Argh it's all up to you. Do the right thing.

Haha that reminds me. I read this comic strip in Sherman's Lagoon recently and it went like this:

1st frame: Pufferfish swims towards the right, with hearts drawn all over it.
2nd frame: Swordfish swims to the left, again with hearts drawn all over it.
3rd frame: KABOOM.
4th frame: Sherman says, "Some relationships just weren't meant to work out."

Alright nevermind, just another lame notion in the head.

I don't look forward to school at all but I can't wait to meet you both later! I know we'll have a good time catching up over sushi. (:

I haven't been posting as much as I used to. I just don't feel like blogging that much nowadays anyway.

I've been sorting songs recently and I came across some pretty cool songs ranging from Switchfoot to Dream Theater to John Mayer to Eminem. Music is really my life; I can't imagine a world without music.

But what's the point if I don't have an mp3 player, coupled with the fact that I'm trying to stay off the computer to study more? So I told my dad that if I get all Bs and As for Promos I'll get one for myself. And he agreed. yay.

I've been feeling useless lately. Hope it's just a passing phase. I know I've caved in and I just want to get out. A faith without works is nothing, so what does that make me? I can't believe I'm fearing rejection from others, something I shouldn't be bothered about.

The choir is going to sing hymns for the council investiture tomorrow and somehow I feel this pang of guilt whenever I sing The Summons. For all believers (Christians and Catholics alike, this is a Catholic hymn anyway) out there, read the lyrics and see if you can truly say that you've answered the call with your life. I know I haven't and I must do something about it in my daily walk with God.

Just a few lines from The Summons.

1. Will you come and follow me if I but call your name?
Will you go where you don't know and never be the same?
Will you let my love be shown? Will you let my name be known,
Will you let my life be grown in you and you in me?

2. Will you leave yourself behind if I but call your name?
Will you care for cruel and kind and never be the same?
Will you risk the hostile stare should your life attract or scare?
Will you let me answer prayer in you and you in me?

Just a little something to ponder about on a Sunday morning before the real church starts on Monday, cuz church ain't the service or the mass, it's YOU outside of the building of the church.

I SAW A PINK SKY TODAY.

I would've missed it if it wasn't for Joseph's message. The last time I saw a pink sky was in Sec 3 and I thought I would never see another one for a long long time. It really made my day, considering today was pretty dull.

Here's the final compilation of my results. If this is what I'm gonna get for Promos, I'll be damned.

GP: D
Econs: C
Bio: D (PLEASE DON'T MODERATE IT!! T___T)
Chem: U (Time to work on this one)
Maths: S (And this one too...)

Not very fantastic, in fact they're all downright detestable grades. Argh. But first to tackle PW... Goodness I don't want to die so fast due to lack of sleep.

But anyway! I qualify for Fanching's NYDC treat. I'm looking forward to it okay. Now to find a day that we can meet each other... -.-

Harry Potter opens today! Time to go bug Andrina, Constance and Xinying. I must must must watch it soon! ):

My week would've have been a lot worse if you hadn't been there. Really glad to have you with me, to know that you care. And yepps, we'll work hard together, won't we? (:

Ever had the feeling of wanting to blog about something for very long, only to forget how it should be phrased? Argh why can't I remember. -knocks head-

I had church conference on Friday and yesterday to be commissioned for the 100k blessing event. One thing that Debbie asked us to do was to find a verse to encourage ourselves. I entirely forgot about this until I met them again but then I remembered a verse that Jonadab blessed me with last time. So I wrote it down to encourage myself in my daily life.

"Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity." (1 Timothy 4:12)

Heh I like the New King James version a lot. Sounds cool. x)

So anyway! I want to be a blessing to others, family and friends alike, the same like how all of them have been a blessing to me. I'm gonna watch my actions so that I can grow to be more like Christ each day. May God give me strength!

Alright, gonna sleep before completing Chemistry. And Maths. And... uhmm.. nothing else right? I should keep an organizer again in my bag.

A kind appeal here to the person who tagged as LaMer to identify himself please. Wished I've a way somehow to find out who you are.

It has become harder to breathe lately.

Tell me Lord, how do I go on?
My heavy heart still beats
Its rhythm
Decreasing with every contraction.

It's so easy to cave in
The options
As obvious as poker cards
Laid out on the table.

The fool neglects good advice
His intelligence
Tells him to follow the desires of his flesh
For the delight of his shallow soul.

The consequences
Nothing but sorrow.
Pain.
Misery.

Ravens mock the girl
Kneeling to pick up
The shards of her broken heart
Knowing they will never be pieced together again.

With this rusty knife
I'll relieve the fool of his stupidity
The girl of of her agony
The past will be erased.

There'll be a new beginning
The light
Is shining at the end of the tunnel
I'll run towards it with outstretched arms
Not there yet, a little further
I'll reach it
Soon.

I don't know if you remember this but you said I was being cliched after I told you something last time. Heh didn't know you said the exact same thing about 2 years ago.

haha I think you might actually kill me for this. x)

you dont find love. love finds you. Sounds familiar?

Here I am, at the library again blogging. It's the Chinese Period! heh.

Now that school has officially started again, it somehow doesn't seem to feel real for me. Everything's just surreal, especially since there're still some unresolved issues floating around. I really ought to keep my distance cuz I really feel guilty about the friendship.

Bet I'll really do badly for the Chem paper so well, no more slacking for me! I'm gonna get my A. Die die must get. Same for GP, Econs, Maths and Bio. hahaha damn ambitious ain't I. I know I'm not the only one wanting to get straight As though! We must work hard together cuz I don't want the class to split up. =(

Now I'm addicted to doing quizzes. Sigh. Yahui you're not the only one! haha. (:

You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

You are kind, popular, and generous. You tend to be successful at anything you try. A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd. You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream.

You Are An Understanding Girlfriend!

You care about your guy, so much that you tend to put him first And while this makes your relationship smooth, sometimes you let big things slide Still be your understanding self, but if something really bothers you - let your guy know He'll still want you, even if you occasionally disagree

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

Chem SPA was easier than expected but still, I think my results are not right. Most people would get close to 24.9 but I got 24.4! rawrrr. I wonder why my HCL is so reactive. Not as dilute as it's supposed to be perhaps.

I feel bad for being a bum (again) and going to the library to read instead of playing badminton with the class. Ohwell. I really really was too tired. Can't believe I got lost in ToaPayoh. -__-

Yesterday was good, I broke my stereotypes of certain people and fell in love with band music all over again. I just wished I knew more songs! Bleah, I could have had so much more fun if I knew the lyrics to the songs they played.

It was beautiful, sad, happy, romantic and guilty all at once. Something I'll never forget. (:

It's weird to hear stuff from a good girlfriend sometimes, especially if she's ranting on and on about her guy.

When she dreams, she dreams about him, about them being together with lips interlocking, the smell of his cologne wafting through her nostrils, their hands being warmed by the heat from each others' bodies under their clothes. The way he looks at her letting her know that she's everything to him, the way she feels aroused just by thinking of stuff like these.

I wonder if I'll ever be such an exhibitionist to dare to tell anyone if I ever do dream about this kind of things. haha society is becoming more open I guess.

Today marks the first day of the 40 days of fasting and prayer. It's time to put aside my personal agendas and pray for the nation! Time to move out of my comfort zone to pursue a faith that works.

Alright have to go. Jamming tomorrow! (:

EDIT: Found this meaningful.

Stuff that bored-ness can make you do.



Spot on.

Okay you all can stop laughing now.

And for a quiz titled "How hot are you"...