Soliloque to self: STOP SLACKING AND START DOING WORK. RAWR.


Sigh. I'm really really stressed. My voice threatened to leave me this morning during assembly but I managed to coax my voicebox back to working condition by spamming strepsils. As the days pass by, I find that I have increasingly less time to do what really matters, like doing my quiet time and studying.


I really deserved the scolding from my parents this Tuesday when I went to East Coast from City Hall just to eat dinner. I should've have learnt from earlier experiences that nothing is more important than good rest! Now I'm in a rather tired form but still! I must study. Will be heading down to Island Creamery to do some work.


Someone should remind me to smile more often! Different people seem to have different opinions of me when I don't smile. Jonathan thinks I look unfriendly, dao and fierce while Yahui thinks I look fierce and Ryan just thinks I'm stoning (innocently staring? hahaha). And well, a certain someone thinks I look arrogant. Do I really leave people with such an impression of me? I remembered a girl from first intake who confided in my friend that she hated me cuz of my seemingly cold demeanour. She didn't even take the time to know me, yet she hated me.


The first time I heard that I was deeply hurt. I know I can't get everybody to like me but who doesn't want to be loved? I really shouldn't take things like this seriously. haha this sounds bhb-ish but I've never experienced direct expressions of hate towards me. Most of the people I meet like me and me them.


I know I'm falling sick, but by God's grace the signs are coming slowly. The weather has been screwy so I think fever's gonna find me soon. Pray for me? With Chem CA coming up and SYF, I've never felt so hopeless before. There's only so much I can do, but I know my God will do much much more for me.


Lesson over. haha. I reiterate, I really must stop slacking.