9:49 PM
Monday, April 30, 2007
I swear I'm in an almost semi-comatose state right now.
But still! I just have to take this opportunity to thank everybody who made my day so special. I don't know if any of you know this, but this is the first time I'm celebrating my birthday with friends. I want all of you to know how much I treasure your presence, that this has been the greatest birthday I've ever had in my entire life.
For the first time, I had messages before I got to school! And also during school hours. Fanching is so interesting lar, sms me to ask if I'm still alive. I'll have you know now that I'm very much alive and kicking. =)
So here are the people I need to thank!
To the people who pooled in money to buy the pair of Converse Shoes for me: A very, very big thank you! It's a dream come true. My love goes out to Yahui, Changyong, Ryan, Joseph, Andre, Stuart, Milu, Germaine, Lindy, Jiayii, Rosheni, Leexian, Rishi, Timothy, Darren and Eirene! Hope I didn't leave out anybody! =)
To those who messaged me before school even started: Kweehong, John, Andrina, Constance, Ashton, Nicholas, Hsienyong, Wilson, Joseph (hahaha why you message me when you could have told me when I went to school) and Sharon! I never felt so much love before yeah. hahaha.
And of course thanks to those who messaged later in the day: Kaijie, Elton, Fanching (RAWR IT WASNT CONSIDERED SINCE THERE'S NO HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN IT XDD), Gwen, Debbie, Jaslyn, Sihui, Dimir, Kenneth and Jonadab. haha hopefully I got all the names down!
And finally, thanks to those who gave me presents of their own. Thanks for the glass coasters Eirene, I think they're really pretty. =)
And Jonathan I almost couldn't believe you gave me a necklace. It's very nice! haha. You must have gotten a girl's opinion when you chose it. hurhurhur. Just kidding! =)
WILSON. I should start spamming your name all over my blog. You're simply such a good friend, I'm ever so grateful I bumped into you on maple on that fateful night in my Sec 2 year. XDD thanks for the dolphin earrings. They go too well with my bracelet which COINCIDENTALLY came from the same person. hahahaha. =) We must meet up more often!
And ALICIA. (: thanks for your time today. Really sorry you didn't eat the cheesecake! but I bet you're very amused by Mr Bala's card tricks. haha.
So basically what happened today besides me getting presents and eating cake was that I had whipped cream sprayed all over my head and face. And BRYAN LICKED WHIPPED CREAM OFF MY HAND. haha I'm still damn amused by it lar.
And there was phototaking! Super fun although I had to be a guaikia and tuck in my shirt and button it all the way up to the top. FOR ONCE I'M NOT IN THE FRONT ROW. HAHAHA. Who cares if only guys were placed in front, all that matters is I'm not there for once! =D
Choir again tmr at VCH for practice. Sigh. Time to face reality again, no? =(
Goodnight guys, and once again THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES. =)
5:50 PM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
I'm absolutely pissed with my sister.
She wanted to delete a post in my tagboard and she clicked the wrong button and whoosh! gone are all my precious tags. I know she didn't intend to do it but still I'm pissed. Or rather I'm in a state whereby I'm silently fuming and venting out my frustration on the poor keyboard. God bless the keyboard.
Choir today was insightful and nostalgic. We had practice at Victoria Concert Hall and I thought we did okay for some songs and badly for the others. It reminded me of UnitedVoices PHS but somehow those times seem so far away. It's almost as if they've faded into nothing, like a faint stain on a piece of cloth that refuses to go away; annoying to some extent yet it brings back memories.
RJC's choir is like.. double our size? As I saw them performing, knowing fully well it'll be CJC's practice onstage later, I asked myself this: Am I going to let myself feel intimidated? Well their choir is really good and this gave us some idea of the kind of competition we'll be up against. A few of us freaked out on stage and our voices just couldn't hit the high notes but well, at least we know what to expect on the actual day.
I don't know if I'm wrong to feel this way. I think I shouldn't cuz it's simply a selfish way of thinking. The conductor arranged another choir practice (those last minute types) on this coming Monday! I would definitely prefer to spend my after school hours hanging out with my friends but now I can't.
Furthermore, as I've mentioned in my earlier post, I'm abstaining from dairy products and cold stuff. I know that Ryan has already ordered cheesecake for my birthday but I WON'T BE ABLE TO EAT IT. Ah crap, if I spoil my voice due to a single slice of cheesecake I know I'll never be able to forgive myself.
haha like what I told Wilson earlier, that fact made me miserable but oh well! I can always cut the cake and my friends can enjoy it. =) But I want the cheesecake so much... rawr!
Sigh. Time to psycho myself. IT'S ALL FOR THE GRAND PURPOSE OF THE SYF. Gambatte! T__T
9:47 PM
Friday, April 27, 2007
Choir SYF practices are really driving me nuts.
How I wish CJC will get a Gold for our efforts. Yeah right, like the judges will give us a Gold just cuz we clock insane hours of practices about 4 times a week.
The week's been amazing and somehow I think I'm in love with ponning. Seriously I can't be bothered with lectures sometimes cuz they can be pretty useless. And I like hanging out with the pioneers of ponning. Haha sighh. Bad influence huh. I can tell that Elton, Jonathan and Andre are a little shocked at my transformation since I've always been the guai one.
Got 16/20 for Maths CA. I'm freaking angry at myself cuz I lost 3 marks due to carelessness! Would someone please take my head and bang it against the wall. I COULD'VE BEATEN YOUR SCORE DAMMIT.
And yepps Wilson, I must make this public. I promise to make an effort to keep in touch with you more often. I don't want to make any more empty promises so I won't make a promise if I know I won't keep it. I'll wear that bracelet to remind me of you always. hahaha. All the best to you and that girl. =)
3 more days to my birthday. I wonder if anything has changed at all in my life during the past year. My greatest wish for this birthday shall be this: PLEASE GOD, GIVE CJC A GOLD FOR SYF. I'm abstaining from Milo, milk, chocolates, fried food, spicy stuff and cold stuff already! I want all this to be worth it.
IF GOD GIVES CJC A GOLD FOR SYF, I'LL BAKE BROWNIES FOR THE CLASS.
I'm beat. Choir practice and rehearsal with RJC tomorrow at Victoria Concert Hall! It'll be exciting, see if I meet anybody I know there. Goodnight!
8:09 PM
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
The strong wind blowing straight into my face chilled me to the bone.
I pulled my choir jacket closer to me and walked home briskly, holding the jacket over my head for the scant shelter it could provide me, my only protection from the cold rain.
The lightning terrified me. Like
Christmas lightings in Orchard Road during the festive season, the intermittent flashes of light made me cringe. I took comfort in the fact that though there was lightning, the sound of thunder could not be heard.
Times like these make me glad that although I'm alone, I'm not really alone! God was with me and He kept me from crying. I'm really comforted to know that in trying times, God is always with me.
haha yepps, this blogpost is dedicated to my Heavenly Father. I love Him so much. (: Thanks for being with me all the time.
10:19 AM
yepps, I've finally found the reason as to why I liked you. Perhaps I've never seen you as someone my age, or even a human...
Your name says it all.
10:17 AM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
10:17 AM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
I remember when we were just kids
When love was far from our minds
When holding hands meant friendship
Not the liking of a different kind
When hugging was just an expression
Of how much we treasured each other
When conversation was just talking
Without our hearts beating faster
I ought to just forgo thoughts like these. Gone are the days and they'll never come back.
I promise this will be my last ever emo post about my current dilemma. After all, it's not even a dilemma. The answer is just so obvious.
11:24 AM
Friday, April 20, 2007
Chinese Period, so if you've read my earlier posts you all would have known I like to blog in the library to just slack the time away.
Elton's sleeping at the computer terminal next to me cuz he's simply so tired. I wonder if this is how school drains our lives away. Slowly but inevitably, we're all doomed to fall under the spell of the ZZZ monster in school.
And since I've got so much time, I decided to change my blogskin! haha. Time to leave unpleasant memories behind and start afresh again. It's nice to do this once in a while; it makes me forget things I don't want to remember.
It's stupid, but I just remembered my birthday's coming up. I'm growing older, not taller and not smarter. Oh well. I'll be happy if I just grow to be more like Him each day. I really need prayers cuz I don't want to keep straying from His word. Damn the desires of my flesh, I'm giving it all up.
I'm happy that I've gotten rid of my internet addiction to neopets. Guess I got tired of it already. Heh. But now it's back to the problem of MSN. I should be more diligent in keeping track of the time spent at the computer.
So here are some resolutions/wishes for my 17th birthday:
1) To pass every damn subject. I failed chemistry already rawrr.
2) To do my Quiet Time everyday! Please pray that I'll never forget the goodness of God for the love of someone or something else. Fanching you know what I'm talking about, so PLEASE PRAY. I need it badly.
3) To practise the piano at least one hour a day. Grade 8 exams coming up, I don't want to fail it again and waste Daddy's money.
4) That the CJC choir will get a Gold for SYF and the concert in Slovakia!
Material wants/needs:
1) A pair of Converse sneakers, size 5 or 4 and a half.
2) A pair of earrings for school. My ring in the ring earring broke. haha.
3) Anberlin CD! Jonadab I will buy it I promiseee.
Alright, and things that some of you might want to pray for if you're reading this.
1) CJC choir SYF date is on 8th May, pray for a Gold please. XD
2) CJC band SYF date is on 11th May, same as the choir, pray for a Gold!
3) Various Sports competitions coming up and ongoing, like bowling, volleyball and hockey. I'm not sure if ODAC has any competitions coming up though. haha. Pray that the players will have the perseverance to strive on despite any hardship. Jiayou!
Alright perhaps I should catch some sleep too.
EDIT: 2 Corinthians 6:14 is such a glaring reminder for me. Not my will but Yours be done! haha. I know You'll give me the right one, one day. =)
8:33 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
I feel damn terrible now.
I'm sorry for saying things or doing things I shouldn't. Why did I tell you that when it was so contradictory to what I really wanted. You're right; you got the final person correct.
I feel stupid saying this but my heart hurts if I don't say this. So don't do anything if you see this. Thanks.
3:41 PM
PW now, the computer shut itself on me and my blogpost is gone. oh well.
Tell me what to write about Mendeleev.
I still don't know what to make out of your response. I'm still waiting for that bear to come. haha.
I really don't know what I'm looking for in a guy and in myself anymore. Am super irritated with myself for even doing that. Small girls should just stay as small girls and forget about falling in love.
Damn, we don't even know what it is to love. (what more about what it's like to burn. ha.)
I need sustenance. Substance in character is lacking and deeply in need of replenishing.
I don't think I can do this alone. But ain't it always like that, we're always alone, even if we think we aren't.
7:02 PM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Ah I feel so good having ice-cream in my stomach, especially since it's from Ben's and Jerry's! =)
Ever since the Fish and Co. outing last Saturday, my internal systems have been in much turmoil, as if my stomach went on strike and decided to stop digesting the food I ate. Methinks the Fish and Chips were a little too much of an overkill; a little too oily and a whole lot too much.
Jonathan thinks I'm bulimic since I told him I feel like puking out everything I eat, including the sandwich I ate for breakfast and the other sandwich I ate for lunch. Amazing how I don't feel like puking after eating the ice-cream though.
As Darren has commented, I'm a really busy person now. I really ought to stop playing meaningless games, like NEOPETS. Goodness, I already have a real life, I don't need another virtual one.
And in real life, I know I shouldn't play that game. I sorta regret it now but I know it's no use. It's a checkmate already, so I hope you'll choose your partner properly. Haha doesn't this sound like Bridge. XD
hee I love squashing my contact lenses after I'm done with them.
Anyway! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST CONSTIIE. For the first time I'm calling you this huh? =p Hope you see this! =) God bless ya always.
7:48 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Between salvation and love, I'm sure my head knows which one takes prevalence. If only that would go down to my heart.
Am much looking forward to the 1T24 outing! That'll set me back by at least 15 to 20 bucks. Sighh. Enough for an Anberlin album. Damnn.
I won't love him just because he looks like you.
9:25 PM
Monday, April 09, 2007
From Darren's blog.
| You Are 80% Weird |
You're more than quirky, you're downright strange.
But you're also strangely compelling, like a cult leader. |
How Weird Are You?Haha whatever.
And this, NOT from his blog.
| You Are A Romantic Realist |
You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance.
Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know.
And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball...
But you'd never admit it to your friends! |
This is kinda true though. =/
11:43 PM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Short post; I mean it.
Just watched A Walk To Remember on Channel 5 earlier and it made me cry buckets. I haven't cried over a show for some time. Sheesh i'm turning more feminine eh. First it was cuz something hit me and now, over some show.
You know sometimes they say there's a space in your heart that only God can fill? I know its filled already but still there's that little nagging feeling...
Teach me to be more and more like you, to live for you and you alone.
Ah fanching. When's megaworship again? If you happen to stumble upon this blogpost, leave me a message yeah. I still have to remind you to take care of your voice one week prior to it. =p
10:01 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
Haha this entry is not meant to encourage the myth that I have a lot of time to blog; I simply put aside some time to blog when I feel there's a need to "offload" memories.
Today was interesting. Seriously I couldn't have asked for a more interesting day. I was walking back to my classroom after PE alone (the rest were either in class already playing cards or in the canteen eating lunch) when I walked past a bunch of JC2s playing frisbee in the quadrangle. Common sense should have told me to keep a distance from them but anyway, I walked straight to the staircase near the pond.
And so WHAM the frisbee hit my cheek when I least expected it.
I stood there stunned for awhile and the JC2s stopped their game and rushed to me, apologising and asking if I was okay. I don't know why, the pain wasn't intense at all but I just started crying. Kinda stupid I know, but I just couldn't stop crying so I couldn't reply them for awhile.
Nodding my head and mumbling some words that sounded remotely like I'm fine, I walked back to the classroom briskly. Really funny that nobody knew I was crying cuz my cheeks were already red from PE so my red eyes didn't really stand out. Only when I wanted to join them to play Dai Di then Chang Yong asked me this: "Are you crying? You look like you're crying."
That made me laugh despite my state then. Thank God for concerned friends. Ryan offered me a cheesecake! It was really really nice. He said that the cheesecake is known as "Randall's orgasmic cheesecake" after the guy who baked it. The cheesecake made me happier. It's the best cheesecake I've ever eaten! haha if he ever opens a bakery I'll definitely buy the cheesecake.
Just when I joined Rishi, Dominic and Bernice for a game of Dai Di, I saw the group of JC2s who were playing frisbee earlier peering into classroom through the windows. They spotted me and the guy who threw the frisbee came up to me and apologised again. He gave me a bottle of ice lemon tea! So sweet of him. hahaha.
Moral of the story? Get hit by something and cry to get your way. Hurhur. Ahh I'M JUST KIDDING. I love CJC for its great people. =)
